My Journey through Breast Cancer

On October 11, 2013, I was diagnosed with Stage II Triple Negative Breast Cancer (TNBC) ... or as we like to call it, extreme measures for a nap (EMFN). For a while, this blog will be my cancer journal. Enter at your own risk.

25 July 2007

lessons from girl scouts

I just remembered ... Stacy Ferguson and I were also in the same Brownies troop. I remember this video we did about camping preparation. There were three or four girls who acted out a scene of going camping, and three of them were dressed warm with warm sleeping bags and a tent. Stacy played the girl who wanted to be cute, rather than warm. Her pajamas were too light and her sleeping bag wasn't a warm one. And in our video she learned (and taught) the valuable lesson that its more important to be warm than fashionable. I wonder if it stuck?

Its funny, but that's a lesson I think most of us girls are working to learn our entire lives. I wonder if there will ever come a day I don't battle the "am I cute?" demon. Insecurity can be such a difficult war to win. Sometimes I win battles, daily attacks of "you're not good enough" are fought with truth .... "its a lie, and besides, I'm warm enough, which is more important." But sometimes I see too many magazine covers graced with perfect skin and tiny but toned bodies, which are really only that way because some guy at the magazine is good with a computer program. And on those days, sometimes, I lose a battle. I guess my hope is that we win enough battles in our lifetimes to eventually win the war.

The most important truth in the battle for self-worth is our identity in Christ. I don't want to sound overly spiritual, or like I have this part of the battle down pat. But its true, isn't it? God thought me worthy enough to send his Son to die for me. When I am confident that my identity lies wholly and securely in Him, what can a mere magazine do to me? Nothing, I purport. Nothing.

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